that is making me feel odd

I'm finishing up American Psycho. It's possibly one of the best books I have read in my lifetime so far and I'm not kidding.
The only thing is, when he starts describing the killing scenes... I actually wanted to vomit a couple of times. Literally, I would be dry heaving while reading more and more. That takes a bit for me, too. I love horror, I love reading people killing people, but Ellis, holy shit. This man. I question him.
I cannot wait until I finish so I can go read interviews about the book, rewatch the movie and then balance my checkbook.
My online bank account says I'm eighty-bucks ahead - it's been like for a week. I haven't spent money to see if it would go down, something would come up.
Nothing, nada.
And I checked everything, I can't find a problem.
I'll just keep it there, not recorded. Just incase, you know?

So, I have this story, and I don't want you all's views or opinions affect the way you JUDGE me, understand?
A couple of days ago, I was complaining about 'zoning' the girls/women/teen sections because all the clothes look alike and I never shop so it's hard for me to judge anything. As I say this, my sister looks up from her computer and asked, "Okay, Heather, let's be honest with ourselves," she chuckles, "are you a lesbian?"
My mother's eye flinch over, but she just waits.
"Yes, yes I am!"
Amanda laughs and that's it.
A night later, as I'm passing my mother in her chair, she stops me with, "Heather, were you serious yesterday?"
I stop and give her a look, "What? About what?"
"Being a lesbian, were you serious?" My mother has no trace of funny on her face.
"Uh, maybe," I laugh and start to walk away, again.
"Heather, I'm serious! Are you really?!"
"OMG, MOM, is this because I don't date?"
"No!"
"It is, you just thought about it..." I was thinking of me and Cricket... And it would make sense, if me and Cricket had ever gotten that close - which we NEVER did.
"No, I would just like to know."
"Yeah, I am," I laugh.
"Whatever, Heather." And she chuckles.

No, really, I am... But I think it would be the most awkward thing for my parents to know. I may say I like guys, but really, I think I just feel OBLIGATED to like them, since it's the 'hot thing' amongst my age range.
I like girls.
I like staring at girls.
I like liking girls.
Hahaha.
I think that story was the best coming out story, ever.
Me and Casey were talking about it, before that story had happened, and I just flatly said, "A penis maks me gag. Imagining a guy on me makes me want to take a shower. They make me feel wrong, awkward and dirty. They're just awful."

Don't worry, my mom prefers me to be gay. It's my father who has the problem and, personally, I don't care.